Routine Expectations

I'm getting through my sixth week as I think about the time, it has not gone as swiftly as I would like but when I look back to 9/1 it does seems to be a long time ago. I have settled into a fairly good routine, work, exercise, reading, writing, and schmoozing with my fellow inmates. I have learned that a routine certainly helps to pass the time. However, the routine is repitive and leads to boredom too.

My expectations for this were to come out a better person than the on e I was when I arrived. I should not say better, I should say more informed and learned. I'm am a good person and honestly I don't feel that I can be a "better" person. I made a mistake and I am paying the price, I acknowledged this. I have learned a lot about the life of a prisoner in the federal system, I have learned that I can handle duress and not let it drag me down. I would say I felt this is the case but this experience is reinforcing this feeling. Probably the most important thing I'm learning is how little the material things in life mean and how important the real things in life are, family, friends, health, peace of mind, inner strength and calm.

So this is and will continue to be a learning experience for me and my family, because unfortunately they are experiencing this with me and probably have it harder.