August 24, 2015
The anticipation of how soon I’ll be released from prison is starting to really affect me. I’m actually quite surprized how affected I am by the thought of leaving because I’ve known about this for the last 4 1/2 years. I’ve been patiently waiting all these years, doing my time efficiently, but now I’m stumped. I think maybe it has a lot to do with not knowing the exact date of my release to a halfway house that’s playing so much on my nerves. These last couple of weeks have been a very long couple of weeks, as if time has stopped. My caseworker told me that the date of my release should soon change on the inmate computer as to when a halfway house representative will pick me up from prison. Now I check the kiosk every morning and every evening to see if my release date has changed. I start to wonder if I was forgotten about or looked over, maybe my paperwork was pushed off to the side. But in all reality, I know that none of this is true. I have to just be patient and trust that the day will come soon. The thing about being from such a large, crime infested city such as Dayton is that there’s always mny other men being released to the halfway house, making available bed space more difficult and timely. The earliest I could be released is September the 17th, but this doesn’t mean a thing. I could have to wait a few more months for an open bed, ergo the anticipation. At the end of the day, I know that God will let me go free whenever He sees fit. I trust in this process. So I just keep to my regular daily routine, controlling what I have power over and leaving the rest up to the Man. 4 1/2 years has been a very very long time. So what’s a couple more weeks or months……
Steven Dybvad
