July 20, 2015
Carswell Federal Medical Center
I will be referred to as federal inmate # 19677-026 in the Carswell Federal Medical Center on July 22, 2015. The road that led to this has been long and filled with many regrets, sorrow, sleepless nights and feelings of my being lost in a parallel universe.
As a child I was extremely talented in the arts. I always knew that someday I would be rich and famous! When I graduated from high school, I opted not to accept a partial scholarship to attend a college in New Orleans. From that point I worked at a local trucking company and attended a local junior college. I graduated from college on time and over the next ten years worked in management and human resources. Also during this period I got married had two wonderful children and completed my master’s degree.
I wanted a greater challenge so I enrolled in a part-time law program and worked full-time. The combination of the two was extremely challenging, but I was committed. I graduated from law school at the bottom of my class. During the four-year journey of law school I got divorced. Juggling parenthood held a high level and very stressful position as a vice-president at a telecommunications company. Failure never frightened me. That’s why, I think, I was able to bounce back up after failing the bar by as little 3 points on each of my two attempts before I finally passed it.
I had no intention of ever practicing law full-time. But sometimes life throws you curve balls and you catch them. I hung out my shingle fresh out of law school and learned through the school of “practice” yes the “practice of law”.
It was exhilarating and accelerated the birth of my premature graying hair. Sometimes clients would pay; other times you would be grateful for pocket change.
After a while I realized that being a solo practitioner would not generate the money and life style that I had dreamed of for my family and me.
I begin to diversify. Everyone that knew me knew I was a creative and energetic trainer. I had the ability to captivate an audience and make the class and subject matter that I was training in come to life.
I was provided with an opportunity to earn a lot of money providing community training on a variety of heath and preventative care topics. I loved it! I would have done it for free—if I could have afforded it.
The training was done, I had a ball BUT I also engaged in a crime. I agreed to give the person who provided the opportunity for my training adventure almost ½ of what I received. That was fine by me. I was making a boat- load of money so I didn’t have to be greedy, I didn’t object to sharing it. However, this sharing of the funds amounted to me agreeing to my pleading guilty to 1 count of theft, bribery, kickback and 1 count of tax fraud. I will get into more details of my crime in later blogs.
For now, I will say that when the government comes knocking you have to answer. I knew I had to tell the truth. So, I did. At sentencing I was given a 25 month federal prison sentence and was ordered to pay restitution $1,172,000.
This conviction has cost me dearly. I agreed to surrender my real estate broker’s license, my law license and my otherwise great reputation. There were many days before I had the opportunity to tell the truth about my actions that my head just wanted to explode. I lived in utter fear from the first knock at my door in 2009 until I had the opportunity to admit my guilt several years later. Every cell in my body seemed to want to explode with terror, grief, shame, fear of the unknown, anxiety, insomnia, financial strain and embarrassment. There were many dark days during this life altering experience but with love, support, acceptance of responsibility and forgiveness you can triumph.
I look forward to writing more in the future.
Best,
Roxanne Jackson
God will guide you down this path and keep you strong everyday. I will make sure I keep you in my prayers everyday.
Love Christine
I knew you were an amazing person on the day I met you at the elevators at the Daley Center and now that feeling is multiplied by a 1000. Bless you each and every day until you come home.
Roxanne, you are not an inmate, you are a helpmate. No matter what the “system” calls you, they cannot define you. There is no one of us who has not made an error in judgment. Not one.
What I know is that EVERYTHING happened for a reason, in it’s due season. That is not just a cliché. It is truth. It’s odd that you mention your health in this short away-cation. Losing weight, getting fit and changing your living style wasn’t just something to be discussed and thought about. It is something we all need to continue on with healthy lives of quality.
Although I am deeply saddened by your time away from home, I can see so many positives from this experience. Your attitude is contagiously high-spirited. Somebody there will need this to be able to pick themselves up and change their lives. You are committed to losing weight and making better dietary choices. Your children, friends and family will benefit from seeing the new you emerge from your extended training session. Your courage leading up to now has been humbling. Too many of us needed to see your journey to know that imperfection is not a death sentence.
I grow from you. I encourage you. I support your “recuperation”. I love you. I will do whatever I can. Carry on soldier!!! MUAH