ONE DAY AT A TIME
On the outside world we become consumed with the daily hustle and bustle of life. We fill our time thinking and doing activities relating to family, bills, work obligations, dr visits, community gossip, church doings and so on and so forth. There always seemed NOT to be enough hours in the day to get it all done. I was the same way. Days, weeks, months and even years became a blur! When you are an inmate time is your BIGGEST enemy. You spend every waking minute thinking about how long, how much longer, how quickly, what new laws could and would be passed to eat up some of your sentence. You engage in the prisoners intranet which more often than not provides incorrect information regarding something that they heard on the prison gossip train. Unfortunately, more often than not these "new" rules or laws are merely, a figment of someone's imagination that has been massaged and subsequently morphed into the message that we all want so bad that we are being FREED before serving our full sentences.
While I am prayerful that there is some new something that allows me to come home after only serving the minimal time, I am not holding my breath. I made peace a long time ago concerning my mis-step that got me here. There is one lesson that I can guarantee and it is "MY NO RETURN POLICY"!!!!! I SHALL ONLY PASS THIS WAY ONCE.
So back to the whole time thing...... I prayed last night and read my scriptures so that God's message to me would sink in and calm me. For those of you that personally know me know that I am a busy beaver. I don't sit or stand in one place for over a second. I am forced to change. I must be still, patient and calm. I have no choice. So I pray daily for peace, patience and acceptance so that I can maintain my joyous spirit. So far GOD has anointed me with a great disposition and I have joy despite my incarceration. Instead of focusing and rushing 2017 to get here, I am making my time count.
I am focusing on my health, weight and vocational skills. So my lesson for today is acceptance and patience. My advice to you is as you live your days in the free world exercise patience. Be accepting of what you may deem as shortcomings in others and most importantly yourself!
Until next time
Be Blessed
Yes my sister, do you! God has definitely blessed you with a joyous and grateful heart. But he has blessed those of us who know and love you with that very same heart! I so admire your strength and attitude during this time of transformation. Always trust and believe that God will never give you more than you can endure, that being said I believe this is His way of hitting your reset button! I know for sure that you will endure this and emerge a stronger more focused woman! You are loving, generous and powerful, always have been, always will be, PERIOD!!!!!! No one and nothing can ever take that gift away from you.
Roxy,
You are doing an amazing job. I knew you were strong mentally and it is definitely a fact now. ☺. Remember what was was. What is is. what is now is now. Don’t look back. Keep looking ahead and continue your journey. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength.. Your future is bright. Your latter will be greater.
Gosh Rock, this sounds so familiar yet shiny and new. The thoughts, feelings and determination are reminiscent yet so close. Life’s lessons are impactful, enriching, sometimes painful, but always a blessing. As children, our mouths bleed and gums often hurt as we lose our youthful teeth. However, the strong, enlarged and purposeful rack that replace those of youth, allow us to be better able to accommodate tougher bites. The same applies to life. I know this has a purpose. I know that God has placed a special anointing on your life. I know that many will benefit from this journey. I know that I love you. You are truly my sister…. in life, in experience, in determination, in faith and in overcoming.