14 Days as a Federal Prisoner
The first time I wrote my blog it was 8 days until my surrender to federal prison. Now I can hang my hat on 14 days being a federal prison inmate.
As an inmate your greatest enemy is TIME and Fear. You count seconds, minutes, hours and days. You fear that loved ones on the outside will get sick and you are not there to help. Being in federal prison is a challenge for anyone. Especially, a busy worrywart like me. I was so use to taking care of my family, being there for my friends and loved ones that this temporary physical confinement is a challenge. What I have learned over the last 14 days of my confinement is to take it one day at a time. I consciously stay busy and focus on what is in my immediate control.
There are certain situations and circumstances that you cannot change or get out of. This is one of those times. The only thing I can do is live each moment of each day on point. Time is the same whether you are out there as we call the real world or inside federal prison. The only difference is your "prospective".
If you look at everything as being half empty cup then that is exactly what you will have—empty days , weeks and months. Conversely, if you decide to view your situation and environment as being half full then you can and will thrive. Many people not in prison suffer from imprisonment of the mind. That have personal circumstances or certain situations robs you of your mental, emotional or physical ability to thrive. As I get adjusted to life in prison, I have spoken to many people that are imprisoned because of negative thoughts, family history, past situations and other events that have left an indelible mark of fear or anxiety in their minds. Fear has the ability to paralyze, immobilize and wither even the strongest branches.
The lesson that I have learned and practice daily is the power to see beyond my temporary confinement. I envision and am preparing for my successful reentry once I leave the Federal Prison Camp in Carswell. I have no bitterness in my heart. I have forgiven. The past is the past. I focus on new opportunities and great accomplishments that are awaiting me in my next chapters of life to come. I am convinced that this fork in the road is not the end but the prologue to a brand new set of adventures that God has ordained for me.
I am still inspired by you. I will use the empty glass analogy more in my life when I am ridiculously negative about something
Roxanne,
Keep the blogs coming. Your point on fear is something those of us surrendering feel and need to face and learn we can change our perspective and to quit fearing! Keep writing!
Roxanne
I’ve always admired your tenacity and determination to face life’s challenges with a positive attitude. You inspire others to do the same. Take one day at a time. May God keep you and bless you more than you can ever imagine or think!
Rox, just as you reframed this experience as going to “fat camp,” you can do the same about TIME. TIME is God’s circular motion of day and night moving forward (it never moves backward) toward your destination (release date.) You know how to make good use of the day’s light and energy and make yourself be quiet, rest and listen to what HE has to say during the darkness of night.
Roxy
Keep looking ahead. The future is bright. For now, keep inspiring people . Your blogs are inspirational.
Rox,
God is shaping you for your glorious future. Trust Him and listen to what the Holy Spirit is telling you.
Love you and miss you!
Pamela