The Faces Around Me in Federal Prison
It has been almost a month since being inmate #19677-026. Every morning I read my scripture and put the date on the scripture. I meditate and ask God that he opens each scripture to me so that it can act as a guiding light for me. I also ask the Lord to encircle me with people that can encourage me and I encourage on each day I am on the grounds of Carswell Medical Facility.
If you surrender yourself to God he will provide understanding and contentment to you despite your surroundings. Only God could have orchestrated my situation here. I'm in a great unit, air conditioned with really good women. I have met women with four month sentences to life sentences. The women with the life sentences are so interesting to talk to. You automatically want to hear their stories. But their stories are no different than yours and mine. One wrong decision, one lapse in judgment, one second of ignoring a situation that should have been reported, one phone call to arrange a meeting and the stories go on and on. These missteps have forever taken their liberty. I am so blessed and grateful that my bad decision that I made has not given me a life sentence. I use to rewind my actions and decisions that got me here over and over again. I don't know how many times I have said "If I only....." or "If I just didn't do......" I would be at home with my darling family and friends! But there is a reason that I had to experience this. I am crystal clear that you cannot have a compelling testimony without a hard fought test! I do believe that this period in my life has been ordained by God. The stories, the transformations, the struggles and the histories of some of my fellow inmates have left an indelible impression in my mind ALREADY.
Life is about choices. I am admonishing each of you to carefully and seriously consider the choices that you make each and everyday. The decisions made today become the ingredients of your future. Once the ingredient is added it cannot be taken out. Some make each decision carefully and wisely! Consider the repercussions of all of your actions or inactions as though your life and livelihood depended on it. Because it certainly does!
The faces here are the same faces that I saw everyday in the outside world, including mine. The only difference in the "faces" in here and out there is ONE BAD DECISION. God Bless!
Keep writing Roxanne. This may be your calling my friend. All of those conversations about finding ones purpose and all of those times we questioned what we were going to do with the rest of our lives. I think you found it. It may not have been the way you wanted to find it. But if you at all inspire others – both inside Carswell Medical Center – and outside – the way that your writings have inspired me and made me think – then you have found it. God got you sister!
Kathy
Hello Roxy,
Keep expressing through writing. Its good for the soul. Hugs
Rock, you are so right. EVERY happening in life is a direct result of our decisions, intentional and unintentional. Each of us live it every day. Most of us have no clue. Thank you for your openness and honesty. Thank you for your courage. Love you!!!!!!
Rox,
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. It takes a real person to own their mistakes and move forward know who holds your future! God can take your mistake and make it a miracle! We know who we serve and who loves us unconditionally! Miss hearing your laugh…………………
Pamela