89 days left
Blog Entry 35
Along with my pending release comes a whole new set of feelings and emotions, some of which were expected and others not. I can’t remember a time in my life filled with more uncertainty than right now. I’m overwhelmed with feelings of fear, excitement, anxiety, and hope.
I have no idea what to expect out of life now that I am a convicted felon, and honestly it scares the shit out of me. Will I be able to live a normal life again or will this felony be a permanent scar I can never hide?
I’m doing everything I can to prepare myself for the future, yet I still feel powerless over my own destiny while here. There is only so much I can do from here. I only hope I’m doing the right things to prepare myself for a life after prison. For once I walk out these doors, I will be in uncharted waters.
The flood of thoughts and emotions makes it hard to focus on any one thing. While doing school work, I often find my mind wandering thinking about the challenges that lie ahead. I currently have no job line up, no place to live, and only a few friends left who have stuck by me and are willing to help.
I can only hope but remain optimistic about my future and hope people will take the time to get to know the real me before making judgments based n my mistake.