Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Twenty-One Days Until My Release From Taft Federal Prison Camp
One year ago today, at this very moment, I was shivering with anxiety in a cold cell after self-surrendering to Taft Camp. I was fat, bloated, miserable, angry and scared. I was about to leave the holding cell and transfer into the tenebrous world of federal prison. Now, one year and one day later, here I sit. The adversity is a part of my past and only optimism awaits me. That is the message I want to convey, not only through words of my book, Lessons From Prison, but also from the example I have set. We can free our demons, our fears, and by confronting them with courage, we can persevere.
Although I have yet to access my blog directly, my mother sends feedback that people have left for me. It pleases me when I read that the descriptions I’ve written through these daily blog entries empowers readers. I know what it’s like to struggle with the anxieties that accompany a criminal investigation. As I explain in Lessons From Prison, adversity and struggle does not mean the end of life. It is part of life, and by embracing it, or at least accepting it, I’ve become convinced that strategies exist to come through it stronger. That reminds me of an old cliche: what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger.
With a positive perspective, I know that we as individuals can find the volition to advance. That may seem condescending for me to say now, with only three weeks of imprisonment ahead of me. That was the reason I began recording the daily blogs so many months ago. I wanted readers to see that my strength did not appear by magic, or by accident. My term has not been a bed or roses.
As I wrote through my blogs, my mastery of imprisonment came through deliberate efforts. I set goals and I applied energy to reach them. While the prison slept, I was up early, working with pen in hand. The record exists as a road map for anyone to follow. Lessons From Prison explains my own journey and provides readers with the insight I relied upon to find strength through the tribulations that I encountered. I feel strongly that the book will add value to the lives of others, and I look forward to building a career that spreads this message.